ME

i'm the one of the moody people.
now i feel so bored, tired, lonely, and others.
and one thing that i need just be alone and do whatever that i like.
but, sometimes in my boredom, i hope there's some one who chat me or send me a message.

if i see the others (my friends) some of them can get friends easily.
especially for the pretty, rich, cool, etc ...

how about me ?
i know, some of you maybe will say that i'm one of that lucky people.
but i don't think so. i also have troubles in friendship.
let me focus on them one by one.

FIRST - one of my friends ever said to me "hey milka, lucky you ! some of the boys like/love you because you're cute."
♥ hmm maybe she's right. but, have you ever known ?? some of that boys are naughty, not cool or rather ugly, playboy, etc ...
hah. and sometimes i feel i'm not beautiful or cute as they said.
in contrast with the other girls that more beautiful than me, they can get the cool and handsome boyfriend. for the bonus, they've the rich boyfriend so he can treat her with buying her something that she want and like.
i ever felt like that once. my first exboyfriend gave me a doll in my birthday. but just him.

SECOND - someone said, "every teachers like you. they care of you. you're his/her goldstudent"
♥ yeah, i ever felt like that too. but just in short time. i ever had a conflict with one of the teacher and i guess noone of you know it. and i'm going to forget it -___- huf.

THIRD - one said, "waaah, lucky you ! you can get many best friends. all of them wanna be your friend."
♥ i don't know i have or i don't have any bestfriends in my class.
for example : when A had a problem with B, A told C all of the bad things that B did. as the time goes by, A forgot her prolem with B and played with B again.
suddenly, A had a conflict with C. then A told B all of the bad things that C did.
aaaaa and it happened to the others. maybe they've ever dislike me and said my bad things that i've done. is it a true friendship ??

FOURTH - i'm hungry now and i gonna eat. see you soon in my next post.

notes :
in my next post maybe i'll talk about special friend.
i don't know why, i wanna have my special friend (boy) again .
what do you think about it ?
which one is better ? having a boyfriend or not ?
i'll wait for your comment (eventhough i know, my blog's guests are only two people)